Rol said
> For John Paul I believe he said that after much
> agonizing over a long period of time it 'just came to him' (forgive me if
> I misquote you) that he did not need to carry that burden any longer. But
> is there a process that helps you let go of that past mistake or failed
> experiment? I think there is.
I didn't mean that I had continuing remorse over a particular act; I was
continually saying "I'm sorry" for mental states that were exposed due to
an intense focus that I had that was not shared by others. Thus, seemingly
neurotically :) , I would take their not helping me as an offense. The
thing about it that made it absurd was that my focus was not stated to
them or obvious of itself and so how could a stranger possibly relate to
my need or intent? To bring the mystery into simple understanding, I
wanted to get married - but just to *one* person, a particular person -
and everything that surrounded me seemed to work against that. Not
literally everyone. And the "working against" was partly my unreasonable
but fervent expectation and a developing intent to not be diverted from my
cause.
-- Have a nice day John Paul Fullerton jpf6745@acs.tamu.edu